Sometimes I wake up at night wondering how I'll make this work...

"Sometimes I wake up at night wondering how I'll make this work. Growing up, there were always expectations from my family. The better I did, the more they expected of me and the more they invested in my schooling. In college, the ultimate goal was to get good grades so that I could get a good job and then not risk anything else. Luckily, things turned out to be a bit different than that. My family was not capable of paying 50,000 rupees a year for college, so I started working online as a freelancer. I would go to college, then work until four or five in the morning, sleep a few hours, and leave for college again. My parents were not very happy that it was impacting my grades. They asked me to stop but I felt a responsibility to help — they had done so much for me. I was able to pay off my tuition for the next three years and eventually turned my freelance work into an agency. I would never have dreamed of the comfort I have now. So, it’s time for me to give back. I helped my parents build a home, pay my sister’s schooling, and live comfortably. Everything seems settled. But now, on top of caring for myself and my family, I'm responsible for the people I work with. The pressure keeps increasing as my income increases — it never ends. Somewhere, you have to draw the line. You have to say, 'This is a level that I am comfortable with.' Then live in the present, and be happy about that. I think I'm at that point. But lately, there's been a lot of pressure for me to get into an arranged marriage. So, I'm wondering what expectations my life partner will bring in and what kind of lifestyle they will want. And then what happens after that? Sometimes I feel like I'll always be chasing money, and there are times when the responsibility drains me. But looking back, I think I've shown that I can handle it."⠀